What would it take - how much walking, meditation, silence, prayer, music, reading, talking, singing, running, teaching, contributing to a community, making art - to at last say a wholehearted yes to your life?
Are you working on this?
Doing something, anything, that might even begin to make this a possibility?
And if you're not saying 'yes' to life, what are you doing instead?
With what cost to you, and to all those whose lives you touch?